GOOOOOOD LUCK BACK AT WORK MICHELLE!!!!!!! what did brianna tell you about her crush??? gosh it must be SOO different from when we were kids, but i know i had crushes from grade 3 onwards, his name was peter marshall and he was a crush, i had a boyfriend in preschool his name was andrew and he couldnt say kelly and called me curly which is funny coz i had dead straight blonde hair then, oh grade 3 i also was into kyal ratz, maybe i will facebook search and see if i can find them hehehehe
Jemima didnt really love being patted to sleep but she was sleepy so went with it and as i said it took FOREVER but i am so glad i did it, tonight she just fed to sleep like she kinda usually does

however

we are having a problem, 3 nights this week jem has woken for EARLY morning feed (3am!!) and then not went back to sleep properly, this morning benji had to take her out of our bedroom and get her to sleep coz she was not staying asleep with me beside her, perhaps coz i was getting the ****s with her pulling my hair..... not cool though
tonight will make sure the dogs cant wake her (just in case that is what was waking her in first place) and then feed her properly if she does wake (not lying down like normal wake up feeds or normal morning feed at decent hour even) then hopefully she will feed back to sleep or i guess i might try the patting thing again

any other bubs starting to wake randomly?????????

i am determined maybe NOT to go back to work at least for a while, thinking maybe will see if can get benji's mum to babysit once a fortnight for a couple of hours so i can have some me time, i dont care if that makes me a failure needing me time but hey..... SIL whom i feel i am compared to (as our bubs are only one week apart) goes to work one day a week on a day when her hubby looks after baby and i think that is a bit "her" time so its not that bad that i want it.....


another question for you allllllllllllllllllll

do you know you anymore without baby???????
i realise i dont know who i am or what i want to talk about when the baby is not on my hip.... i feel like i need her as i dont think anyone is wanting to talk to me..... know what i mean???? it is so wierd..... i have totally lost self confidence a little kinda..... which is funny if you know me coz i dont know if that is how i appear but inside that is what i am thinking........... hmmm??

oh and FINALLY some ladies at church noticed i had lost weight, the first people to notice that didnt know i was on a diet!!!!! yipppeeeeeeeeeeee i have lost 5/6kg this month so was hoping someone would notice soon! and benji's family today at jemima's cousin's party (and kinda jemima's party for that side of family) said i was looking good too, so yippee to that!
am going to buy new skirt to wear to jemima's party this week mine is too big

jayne - when is claudias party now???

kristy - PHI it is worth it, friends who dont have it and laugh are jealous as all hell when they see the good stuff you get in private hospital, they may say it is only for 3 days or they may say they get room to self, but really it is never the same..... my private room at the mater was AWESOME i had double bed to share with benji, recliner, ensuite, view of storey bridge and city from my balcony, the food was so so so good all the meals had icecream and jelly hehehehe i didnt have to chose food the day before or anything i could just wander out of room and pick it when it was being served unless jem was funny then they brought it to you, it was worth every cent! i also love my PHI as recently i decided to fix my lowerback pain i've had for about 7 years, going to physio is costing me $5 out of pocket!!!!! thats it!!! and dentist doesnt cost much either!!! so when my friends that dont have it tell me i'm wasting my money i think about my 5 day holiday at the mater where i got to know my baby in privacy not with someone on the otherside of a curtain.

where is everyone else??
cate??? ryn????? kirsten????