Sorry I've been a bit quiet, just had so much on with visitors and all! Having 2 kids now is keeping me lots more busy!
Well we had a bad night for the first time, Harley woke for a BF at 7.30pm, was on for a good half hour, managed to get him down and have a shower and got into bed and no more then 2 mins later he is upset and wouldn't settle. Thought he had wind, so tried burping him, but no such luck, but he was sucking away at my arm and his fingers, so I thought maybe he didn't get enough, so back to the chair we went and tried again, was on for prob another 20mins and fell asleep, I thought great, we might all get some sleep now...and again 2mins after getting into bed he is upset again...so think hmmm maybe try the other side... cos I know he falls asleep abit on the boob, so went in for another 30mins on that side and again hes falling asleep at the end and I thought surely this time he will go down...but nope, then I thought maybe he had to much and had a real belly ache, but he just kept sucking at his fingers and the dummy was getting a good workout..and then the tears just came..my baby blues kicked in...I started feeling like a failure again, that I wasn't giving him enough and my boobs just hurt so much and my nipples are cracked...but I just really wanted to give this a shot and I have my SIL who seems to look down on me and I just had all these images of her saying I'm a failure... Rob was just so good, was calming me down, and I said, I really wish I had got a tin of formula just to be on the safe side, and we had no 24hour chemists around. Then it came to me that Nina next door had formula cos her lil boy is now on the bottle...I just wanted to give Harley a top up..so looked to see if their lights were on...was 11.30pm and yeh the lights were on. So called Nina and she was like I'm over right away, cos I just burst into tears...she came over and we topped him up and she then showed me how to wrap him in a muslim wrap (didn't get shown at the hospital) and he settled nicely...although after a good burp and poop!
So I was so greatful for Nina...she said anytime...
I got a breast pump today and well the right boob got all this blood coming out...and then when the blood part had gone thru, I only got 30mils from that side and about 40mils from the other...Looks very watery, like I'm not getting the thick stuff. My midwife is coming tomorrow, so will talk to her about it...This happened last time, my supply just wasn't enough... So looks like I'm heading down the formula trail again...but I'm not going to beat myself up over it...will wait till she comes tomorrow to decide on anything...
Just a question though, will it hurt him to have a bit of both? Like I'm thinking I'll give him the booby juice I got out next feed...Just don't want to upset him...
So glad everyone is going well with their babies... so wish we could all meet up... Are there any other mums here in Brissy? I don't think their are... Oh wells, I'm just glad we have support thru here
Ok well I'm gonna head off...time to do a few things.. oh just before I head off, went to the shops for the first time today and boy do my joints need some exercise hehe
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