Hey girls

Things are going really nicely with Harley, lately he has been sleeping about 6-7 hours, then wakes for bottle, and goes back down for 4 hours, so normally I wake either 2am or 3am and then he goes to either 6.30 or 8am! Pretty happy bout that.

I've had my first AF as well and boy its not been nice, cos I've had breakthrough bleeding due to missing the pill a couple of days when we went camping, so since having Harley i've only prob had a week and half break of no bleeding at all!! Its had me down in the dumps and my anxiety has started up again, having all these attacks, and the other night we went to get dinner, got home and once I was out of the car and had Harley, I felt like I was going to tip over, Rob had to take Harley and I just had to sit down, think it was cos my blood level was low and due to not having enough water, but yeh it bought on another attack...so I went to bed after Harley had his bottle at 8pm and we both got 6 hours sleep!
I just don't know wat to do about this anxiety, I feel like i'll be better going back on the medication... even though I don't want to rely on it, but I know I relaxed alot better with it... I just have this one huge fear, ever since I had a horse fall that caused my anxiety, and since having children, this fear is stronger, and thats of death...so everytime something is going wrong with me, I think the worst... I know I should speak to someone, but I just don't know if its going to cost me alot... I have so many issues that have happened thru my life, I'm finally so happy but this anxiety is driving me crazy!!!

Sorry to ramble on... but I needed to get it off my chest...

Hope u girls are all well and Amanda I'm so happy for u and JD!! Really makes me smile to hear u guys going well