Hi girls. Sorry I haven't been around. A bit of a combination of constantly getting kicked off the site, having pages not loading and also going through a bit of a down patch myself.

AF arrived in full force today, but I have been having spotting since Monday morning. I was hoping against hope that it was implantation bleeding and that the clomid I was on had delayed O. But alas...no. So we are back at the damn start again and I am feeling so.....sigh...I don't know. So sh*t actually. I am so sick of things just not happening (TTC wise) and having to rely on drugs, drs and medical intervention. And while I'm very happy for all those that are getting pg, it is hard for me. I guess it just reminds me of what I haven't got....yet.

And on top of it all, I feel so damn guilty for feeling like this, as I have a baby and sometimes I think I should be glad I have him and get over it. But it's not that easy huh?

Anyway, don't mind me. I'll be ok once I get going on this cycle again. In 4 days I start clomid again, so hopefully this cycle will be the one.

Happy Birthday Brooke. Sorry I missed it. Hope you had a lovely day.

LVs to Kate. Not long to go now!!

Hugs to Heather and grrr to the m/s.

Good to hear that Blake has had a good night's sleep - it must have been the sniff of the sleep school!!! LOL.

Hi to everyone else.