Smudgies mum - It would be lovely if we lived in a perfect world and all mums who wanted to stay home could do so. I really don't want to go back but if I don't we would lose our house so back I go. I have to go full time as at the moment my boss is only offering 30 hours or 40 hours. 30 hours means paying for 4 days of day care which is more than a full week so full time it is.... for now. If things don't work out with DF & I, I have decided I will quit work and concentrate on being mum - the house would have to be sold & I'd just rent. I'd go back to work part time when he went to school. So I guess, if it doesn't work out there is a silver lining. Things are still very tense in our household & I honestly don't feel that confident about things. Will have to wait and see what happens.

Brock is now crawling quite quickly so it's getting harder to keep up with him. I've also got a recurring problem with shoulder pain which has got worse since giving birth & picking him up all the time isn't helping. The doc can't find anything wrong with my shoulder at all so have to put up with it.

Brock is now starting to be more awake at night & he's been up til about 9.30 every night for about a week. I keep trying to put him down but he's just way too awake. I think I'll really like this though once I'm back at work as at least I'll get to see more of him - he used to go to sleep at 7-7.30.