Satya: I hope you and DF have sorted things out. DF and I had weeks of couples counselling after Taylor was born and I can tell you it was hard and often caused more trouble then what were were having before we started them. Our arguements peaked in the weeks we had counselling but we stopped in October or November I think and we havent had one fight since. I think adjusting to a new family is a HUGE part of instability for the first while, my friend went through the same thing as me. I think that sometimes so much focus is taken away from your relationship and its all put on the baby that you forget how to deal with each other, during fights and forget to cherish each other when you get a moment alone...... after awhile if you cant stop you just 'live' together...... does that make sense.

Livy: Thats terrible about your friend, such a shock and so quickly. Its not the most sensitive thing to say but its a story like that when I thank my lucky stars that when I got Taylors injection last week I also remembered to have my cervical cancer vaccine too. My condolences.
Christmas is a horrible time, it takes so much energy out of you. I was actually thinking that next year we should have Xmas at our place but not after seeing my families this year LOL.

I want to see Benjamin Button, thanks for the heads up. I would have been looking at my watch every 10 minutes half way through it wondering when I would be able to get pick up Taylor.

Well not a whole lot to report on this end. I'm beginning to wonder if Taylor has hayfever and thats the cause of her sniffles and constant sneezes. Its quite funny because Ill sneeze 4 times in a row then she will start as well.

We got 6 month pixifotos of Taylor and I started to feel dizzy while picking out the photos we wanted that I rushed through them and ended up buying 2 sets of all of them and the cd..... idiot.... doesnt matter its paid for now and Im sure we can give some away. She doesnt smile at strangers so she looked a bit stunned in some of the photos.

Back at work on Wednesday..... what is it with people looking down at me for going back to work. At least its not full time. But if I have to politely smile back at one of those 'you should be staying home' looks or one of those 'oh they take children that young at childcare' or 'oh you wont be looking after her, where will she go' comments I think I will cry. I dont want to go back to work, but for so many different reasons I have to....... I want to spend as much time with DD as I possibly can but I also want her to have a SISTER LOL and buy a house and open a trust fund for her and give her swimming lessons and so on and so on. Spending time with her was my top priority which is why I am working 3 days instead of full time, but no one wants to listen to my story - not that I should have to defend myself to anyone - so now you guys had to listen to it lol.

Anyways Im exhausted so Im off. Hope everyone had an non-eventful happy new year.