Hi all, feeling really down today. DH and I have been fighting heaps - all due to me being such a crazy b!tch - that sounds really defeatest and like I am a brow-beaten housewife but honestly is is true, sadly. Ever realised that your ideal of yourself isn't what you really are? I always wanted to be the one in the relationship who held it together, was the rock, the one who could be silently relied upon. Well it is so the other way around! You'd think I'd be happy to have someone like this but it is hard! I asked him if he would forgive me for being so wrong for all these years, and he said "I forgive you every morning" He's the rock, I'm the flake.

And I am feeling down because I had (and am having) a panic about my milk supply, so much so that I went and bought some sachets of formula and gave Flynn some before bed. He only took about 180mls and had boob for the rest of his feed. He seems to be feeding predominantly at night, which I am resisting because I am tired, and so my supply is low during the day when he is distracted, moving, eating solids or whatever. My MCHN appt is tomorrow so we'll see how his growth is - maybe it is all in my head?

Nickers I am so happy for you - it sounds like you and your DH have got another great 12 months ahead of you. I really love how you are so optimistic about the two of you. Don't get me wrong, I am optimistic about my rship with DH, but it is more because of all the workk he has put in to holding us together than anything on my part. Such a doofus.

Dee, maybe you and your DH caught my moping downer relationship bug Hope you guys can sort it out. My advice is to be strong, turn the other cheek and try and understand his perspective. I hear what IK is saying, but I just wish I had been less antagonistic with my DH many years ago - I've been doing it for so long it is a deeply ingrained habit. Don't let your heart harden.

Better go - wanna hang out washing and shower before it gets too late. See y'all tomorrow