Oooh, Dee, my situation is so similar (not sharing a birthday, though, that's really cute!) - my mum lost a baby in between my sister and I, and I believe that she would have lost her sanity that much sooner (LOL!) if she had had that child. Still, it would have been nice to have a brother. There was another after my sister, but that was ectopic, so there was no chance of any others, close or far, after that one. I think it's wise for you to spend time with Lochie, figuring each other out before having another. Re: DF, your relationship gives me weird vibes, to be frank, and that's only based on what you have said on BB, mind you, so don't be too alarmed - only you know what the go is with you two, and you need to act on your instinct about the matter. I'm not going to tell you that it's just the stress that's got you having doubts, because I don't believe it - you shouldn't go into a wedding, which leads to a legal committment, at each other's throats and feeling belittle, devalued, unheard, unvalidated. You've been through heaps with Lochie and are making such great progress...DF should be your cheer squad, but I just keep reading that he thinks he is the hero for 'putting up with it' and that you just need to 'get over it'. You said it yourself, he elevates his own interests over yours, and even Lochie's. I think you've got a lot of thinking to do, and trust me, I really want you to be happy *hugs*. If DF could get over himself, it would bode well for you to be together to raise your boy and have fun doing it It would break my heart if he broke your heart, Dee.
DP has a rice pudding in the oven...yum! I have resisted buying the tinned variety cos I know how good the real thing tastes and I keep telling myself I'll make it, but I keep forgetting. But I didnt' today. After the power went off (numerous times...underground powerlines would just make too much sense up here in the hills, what a STUPID idea...), I heated up a dinner I had cooked two days ago (on purpose, for today - I'm not usually so well-prepared) on the stove, and asked DP to cook the pudding. He had just said he wanted to cook a dessert and I jumped on it with my request!
An early night might be in order if the power goes out again, even though we have a kero lamp for light.
Update: The back room now has visible floor space...I might even be able to study in my study next week...but I won't hold my breath...