Babies Born March 16th - 31st 2008 #2

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Good Morning everyone.

Again I am up before the crack of dawn! At least I get some time to myself before Sam wakes up.
You have no idea how much I missed the Internet,you really don't realise how much you rely on it until you don't have it.It was so annnoying..took 6 calls to hopeless Telstra to get it connected.You really wouldn't think it would be that hard.

I'm loving the space we have now, although I feel a little lost in the area.

I have decided with my doctor that i am going to lower the dose of my medication.I am having such bad side affects from it, night terrors and sweats.Maybe a little tmi but I have been waking up dripping in sweat and that's why I am always up so early.It is to the point that I can't stand it anymore.
It's a catch 22 though. Do I put up with it and feel almost sane or do I lower the dose and risk feeling worse? I decided to risk feeling worse to get a good nights sleep.I have been on the higher dose for 3 months now and feel I am in a better place to deal with it if things do get bad.
My doctor thinks that this medication is probably not the best one for me, but my options are so limited with breastfeeding.I cant stop the feeding though...I feel that would be the beginning of the end for me.I would be devastated. I just wish having a baby didn't do this to me.I'm so scared for next time.

As for Sam, he is being pretty good compared to how he was.The move didn't seem to affect him at all.He is getting so much personality now! I just love watching him do all these new things.

Andie - Sam is still rear facing in the car, although we are about to turn him around.He would weigh over 9kg now.That's the safe weight to turn them around ,isn't it?
Oh and I would support you 100% for senate!

Nic - Sam is doing those raspberries all night and day too.How cute is it! He even does it when he is trying to fall asleep.
About the live chat...I tried to work it out yesterday but it wouldn't let me log on?? I would love to get online and live chat with you though.
Has the tooth appeared yet? Been thinking of you.

Luey - Glad your night out went well.Must be nice knowing you can go out and not have to worry about sleeping.Fingers crossed for next time!
I like the "WE" had Apple today! Sounds like me!

Macca - Yay for the first Tooth! I don't want Sam to get one, it will mean he is growing up.

Mel - Biting...Sounds very painful. I'm glad to hear he is doing it a little less.
Good luck with the Unit.Have you found out if you can bring the monitor yet? I hope it all gets better for you.
What do they do? I mean what methods do the use? I am very interested to hear the feedback. Sam 's good night still involve at lest 4 wakings.

Bec - How are things with Ben? Having Sam in the room is an issue for me too.I can't bring myself to take him out just yet though.Mind you, I really don't think it would make that much of a difference for me anyway.I just can't bring myself to "do" it anyway.I know the depression can do that and that my meds make it worse but for me it feels like more than that.I don't know how to explain it...It makes me feel dirty,like I am doing something really really wrong. I am going to speak to my psychologist about it because it's becoming an issue for me...well us.I just don't understand why am like this.

All-boys - Enjoy your holiday, I wish it was me!

OK that's it for me. I did want to write a whole lot more but my concentration isn't that great so early in the morning and I'm worried I will start talking about some Self -Combustive Space puff System if I keep going.mmm....I had a dream last night that had that in it.It was this spaceship thing...

Love to you all

Laura xx