sheree - yeah i have always been to hard on myself, and i reckon once we become mums we are even more so, good on you for giving yourself a break, i am going to take a leaf out of your book. i have relaxed totally about the toilet training, am just gonna let him be pants free at home and use potty but put a nappy on when we are out, once he has mastered the potty then i'll get more serious but im not going to rush him, i wont start stressing about toilet training til he's 3.5. How exciting that you are feeling those little movements! July will be here before we know it and our babies will be big 2 year olds! the T-shirt idea sounds cool

leanne - thankyou so much for your support, i had tears in my eyes when i read the posts just now and all the support everyone is giving me, i feel very lucky to have you guys. I know that i will get through this bout of anxiety as i have done it before, Jay is being so understanding and supportive not pushing me t do things that panic me, its like reverse psychology, he tells me i dont have to do whatever i feel anxious about, then, because there is no stress about it i can do it just fine!

nat - thanks for you support it really means so much to me, hug. Gosh Em is a great talker, telling you the train is stuck! Arch is just starting to string more than 2 words together, makes life SO much easier when they can express themselves with words.

Arch was quite unsettled tonight, all afternoon he would just start chucking a tanty then hold his jaw and say "ooooww", i wish that stubborn tooth would just break through already! Teething is so much easier now that he can talk and tell me what hurts though. jay starts work at midnight, so if Arch is having a really unsettled night i'll probably just put him in bed with me, he always sleep in with me too, bonus!