Woo hoo first again!
Thanks so much Nelly, I think you just wrote what we all think. mother guilt is incredible isnt it. So much of what you said rings true for me, after cold, virus, immunisations and reaction to cereal i got sick of trying to settle evie too, so i would just bf her to sleep then when i knew she wasnt hungry, i'd just put her in bed with me cos i knew she'd sleep. now we're in this f***ing cycle. Mind you, like i said i'm starting to think a lot of its because of looking after my nephew...and that has mother guilt plastered all over it. from the day evie was born i tried so hard to make sure she had that night/day difference down and she was perfect! i didnt mind getting up 3 times a night because i knew that after her 10min feed she'd be straight back to sleep. i'm so disappointed and annoyed that shes having so much trouble again. i really dont know how to break her out of it.
also, nephew is here today, sick so of course evie's getting even less attention. good thing i told sil to find another nanny