Belinda, cotton tree sounds great - but I would have to make it the week after. My mum arrives on Saturday and is here for nine days. we'll arrange it later next week ok?
AJP. Hugs darlin. I feel your pain hun. There is a lady on BB who lost her little boy the day before aston was born, and I feel guilty just because I have him, and she doesn't. Everytime I read anything she posts I tear up, and I don't even know this woman, other then what she posts. I cant even imagine what it would be like to loose a child, my heart aches just thinking about. You are feeling for your friend, and her loss, and that is totally understandable. Its wonderful that she is pregnant again, but must be stressful for her and you too. Try to remember when you are feeling guilty about the PND that everyone's journey is different and no two the same. While there may be similarities along the one, and people my be able to empathise with you, your experience is unique to you. Your PND has brought into focus issues that you have with your own childhood, and the experiences you had as you were growing up, ones that you want to be so different for Sophie. Are you seeing a counsellor by any chance? I found for myself that the best way to move through the pain was by talking about it, to a professional. The medication alone wasn't enough. It evened out how I was feeling, and the mood swings settled, but I didn't really start to get better until I did some heavy duty counselling. Even as I type this I am aware that I need to seek some more, as my daughter is moving into an age that I am struggling with - not because of what she is or isnt doing, but because of what was happening in MY life when I was her age, and I am actutely aware that I dont want the pendulum to swing dramatically the other way. Anyway darlin, hang in there, keep breathing in and out, and be kind to yourself.
Vicky - Aggh at AF coming so soon. Nothing of the sort here for me although I would actually be over the moon to see my cycle back. Logan was concieved with assistance as I was not really ovulating with any regularity. I am keen to try for no 2 in the not to distant future due to my age but also have the dilema of not wanting to stop BFing. Don't think there is much chance of AF whilst I BF but I will continue hoping!
Hope you can find some like-minded women with babies in your area. it really is nice to mix with others to help keep you sane! Pity we all live in different states - we could all make a great mother's group!
BabyRoo is the baby version of Gymbaroo. Logan has cried throughout both of classes we have been to but hopefully he will start enjoying it more soon. Don't really like the idea of paying $$ to have my baby cry for 45mins!
Christy - Hope the Paed appt went well. I know what you mean about the $$ -our bank account is falling fast with all the money we are spending to try and sort Logan out!
Great that she sleeps 10hrs at night. That must help save your sanity.
belinda - Sorry that Cooper is not 100% Are the other kids ill at all?
Kim - well done on surviving a full work day - I think you deserve a medal for keeping up with it all!
AJP - Please don't beat yourself up about what you are going through. You didn't ASK to get PND, nor could you stop it anymore than someone with any other illness. What happened to your friend is the worst tragedy i think anyone could experience but that doesn't mean you have any less right to feel the way you do. You were obviously hit hard by her son's death also which only makes things worse. You DO deserve to have such a wonderful baby but no matter how "good" she is, you can't help, nor should feel guilt about your mental state.
I am still happy to get together with you and we can both vent our frustrations! Tuesday next week no good, sorry as i will be at Tweedle day-stay. Thursday is a possibilty for me if you are free?
Paed visit the other day was fairly unproductive. he still thinks Reflux the likely issue and has just upped the dose of Losec and written the refferal for NorthPark
Had Pinky around for a home visit yesterday. I though Logan was going to prove me wrong by sleeping like an angel whilst she was here but nope, he came good and showed his 45min pattern. Pinky thought he looked to awaken with pain and at least made me feel like i am not over-reacting with his problems. She couldn't offer any magical suggestions other than to try getting him straight to the boob when he wakens. Not ideally what I want to do every 45mins or to be "tied" to him as the only person able to settle him. however, i have tried it this afternoon. Got him to sleep in the hammock then stright up and into bed with me at 45mins. took another 10mins to resttle but he is still asleep now and hr later so maybe I'll just do it when i can and hope the cycle breaks in time? or the mother/baby unit offers something miraculous!
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