Hi All - I made it! Only just realised this thread was here

So far all is going pretty well with little Leila, I am so in love with her! Everytime I look at her I'm just blown away by how gorgeous she is and how much I'm in love with her. I can't believe DH & I made such a perfect little person!!

I'm very jealous of all of you who have great sleeping babies. During the day Leila is a gem, she has no trouble going to sleep and will sleep through anything but once the sun goes down she turns into a little horror! The other night it was 7:30am before she settled into a decent sleep, it was so awful! Last night was probably her best night, she settled down at 3am and slept until 7:30am. I think her little body clock is a bit out of whack and she just needs to learn the difference between day and night, but we'll get there. DH is being absolutely wonderful so we take it in turns during the night so that we each get some sleep. I express enough for a good feed for her so that when DH is on shift he can feed her when she's hungry. So far it's working well but unfortunately it's only going to work until DH has to go back to work. Let's hope we get into a better routine by then!

I'm recovering well from the c-section. I'm finding my recovery to be great physically but difficult emotionally. I feel so disappointed that I had to have a c-section as I really wanted to birth my baby naturally. I feel like my body has failed me or something and that I've been robbed of something that I desperately wanted to experience. Leila was very distressed and within 3 hours of getting to the hospital she was born, I only got to 2cm and they said there was absolutely no waiting to see with this one, the baby had to come straight out. So I know that it was definitely the right thing for her and at the time I felt fine, I had no issues with it as I just wanted my baby safe and well. Now however, I look back and wonder why it had to be that way and if there was anything that I could of done to prevent it. I guess the main thing is that she is safe and well and absolutely perfect.

BF is going well, I had one very sore cracked and bleeding nipple the other day but thankfully that is healing now, its still tender but I can feed from it ok. I seem to have a pretty good milk supply which is good and Leila is a very good feeder. I had my first experience of BF in public yesterday which was weird! I don't have any issues with it but I must say I did feel a little self-conscious when I was doing it, probably because I am still learning.

Hope all you mummies are going well and enjoying your lovely little bundles!

Fi x