Isn't it funny how our little ones are so clever? Jess crawls over to Kat's high chair now when we put Kat in it for lunch/snacks so that if Kat drops anything, jess has it within seconds. She's eaten chips and bikkies and apple etc that Kat has dropped. Jess cut her first tooth last night. I felt it thru when she chewed on my finger and sure enough, it had broken thru the gum. She didn't even get grumpy or upset while cutting it which is FANTASTIC. She's crawling so fast now it's not funny and she's a paper muncher like Kat was/is..... I love watching them play together. It's adorable.
Ok girls, I have a problem. I WANT another BABY. My whole being craves being pregnant again and wanting another little baby (maybe because my babies seem to be independant and grow up soooo quickly!). I've talked to DH about it and he wants more too, but not yet. Not for a few years. I understand his reasons etc and I agree, but it's like an addiction to me. I want another one. I miss being pregnant and I miss the cuddles etc. Jess doesn't want to be held anymore. She wants to be off crawling and exploring. I can't believe the stregnth of this longing for another baby! Dh just doesn't understand how strongly I feel. I feel I would be happy to be pregnant non stop till menopause. I know I've forgotten how bad the sickness etc is, but the end result is so worth it and I just want more children! I used to think 2-3 was my limit and DH's jokes about having 12 were outrageous. Now I WANT 12! I want a house full of laughter and cute smiles and babbling... I know we can't do it yet and I know the reasons. But I just feel sooo strongly.... I had an IUD in place untill friday when after discussions with the Dr it was agreed it wasn't suiting me AT all and the constant bleeding and cramping and tiredness wasn't worth it. Now DH and I will be relying on condoms again and I'm afraid he'll think I will trick him into having another. That is totally NOT me to do something like that so I hope he doesn't think that. But part of me is scared he'll stay away from me for fear that I will get pg again.... I do want another baby, but not at the expense of my marriage. I will wait till we decide together to have another baby... I just wanted to know.....is it normal to feel this way (to want another baby this strongly.....is it just part of jess growning up that I feel this way?). I felt it after I had Kat too. I felt I wanted another. Then I found out I was pg! I don't know what to do... I'm not going to deliberately fall pg anytime soon, but I fear if it does happen by accident Dh won't believe it was an accident.... and I want it so badly...
HELP ME SNAP OUT OF IT!
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