hi melissa,have been thinking of you,any word from your results yet,must be so difficult having that unkown feeling hanging above your head,i have everything crossed that all your results come back good and that you will be ttc very very soon.
chantelle is still unwell,still has a temp and still very sad and unwell.poor gugger,harry is just great he is such a good baby,i am really counting my blessings with him,he still has his cough though.
i am feeling down today,me and dh have been screaming at each other since yesterday,i am jack of my life.tis sooo hard and i feel so trapped in a life i didnt want and didnt ask for.i have a masive chip on my shoulder and feel so sorry for myself and i dont even care.evryone can go to hell.my kids give me the ****s especially the older boys,they are so selfish and corey is so naughty and doesnt care that it is running me into the ground,he thinks it is funny,but i dont,i never wanted to spend my time as a mother abusing my kids everytime they open there mouth.i just want to sleep.then i dont have to face it any more.i didnt want to have another baby and grant gave me no choice and all i want to do is make him pay like he is making me pay.i told him if i had to go ahaed with having a 4th child he would lose his wife and the kids would lose a sensitive patient,loving mother and that is exactly what has happened,i told him and now he has to live with the decision he made and the position he has put me in.blah blah blah.i really suck!!!!!!!
nikki