Shell - thanks for asking about my course its going really well it finishes next Saturday will be sad it finishes. Will be keeping in touch I think via email as support group or maybe meeting up once a month I think, there is not other follow on from there with the private hospital...but have found a new pschiatrist to see I have just got a referal. I have been quite good for 3 weeks now but had a big slump back downhill on the weekend, just trying to get myself out of it now...the universe seems to be forcing me to deal with my fears at the moment, seems to think I can cope with it. Honestly trying to focus my thoughts elsewhere and try not to worry about the chemicals from pest control man in my building thats worrying me...i dont wont to get on the downward spiral of not being able to stop washing my hands because Ive been out my door and in the common areas of my building where they have sprayed every floor IYKWIM. Im trying real hard. I have learnt some good coping mechanisms and how to enjoy each day and try to not get caught in the spiral.

Annie - Ohh so sad about your friends Nephew sorry to hear that hon. I hope he will be ok