It's that mummy guilt thing isn't it.
Yep. She's so happy today, it's the first full day we've had at home together, just her and me, in about 4 weeks. Not to mention the expense of it all. No one who can really look after her here for me. Am thinking maybe I should book her in, but then if I'm ok, change the hours so we spend the morning together when I've got oomph and then she can go to care in the afternoon for a few hours - long enough for me to have a proper sleeping rest so I'm functional in the evenign when DD1 and DH are home. Problem with booking care - if I book, I pay.