Catherine - i was petrified of falling asleep during the c/s - even though i was severely tired - i just didn't want to miss anything at all - like if i fell asleep, it would mean i'd missed an important part of her life. i think it comes from the experience my mum had - i was delivered under GA and she didn't get to see me for ages - when she finally did, my Grandmother was holding me - i knew DH wouldn't call my parents until i was back with him if we had to be seperated, but SIL was there to take photos of our girl and i just stressed that maybe she would get to see our baby before me - i love her to bits, but that was a no go idea in my mind! i think that was in my mind all the time - i HAD to be there - and no one was (or has been) allowed to meet her without me there! i've missed out on a lot of the "congrats" comments cos DH has been out and about more than i have - when it comes to meeting Emerald, it's with me there!

have a VERY tired girl tonight - my mum called when she was already getting over tired and asked if we'd come to her place cos my cousins were coming to visit (haven't seen them since feb last year) - they'd just called would be there in an hour or so, so we figured, given we have a car sleeper, it might be worth the trip. got there with bubba finally sleeping, and the FIRST thing i said when i walked in and mum's dogs barked was that if they woke her, i'd kick their butts - so my folks KNEW she was sleeping. she stirred from the noise of the dogs, so i sat with her capsule and started rocking it - dad came to "have a look" and started touching and talking to her until he woke her up - i was soooooooooooo annoyed. started to get ready to feed her (she was really upset) and mum said "give her here while you get ready - i'll have a cuddle" - ummmm NO - so she cracked the sads at me. cousins arrived and i spent most of the visit with an over tired little girl who just wanted to feed for comfort. cousin ended up getting her to at least settle a little after a while so i gave another quick feed and we headed home - got home and she still didn't want to stay asleep - poor poppet is so over stimulated and tired. have fed her to sleep so many times in the past two hours - but she keeps waking her up. have wrapped her tight now, took her to bed and fed - she went to sleep - but as soon as i moved, she popped her little eyes open again. she's settled for now - not sleeping but not crying, so i'm leaving her to see if she self settles. i really hope tonight she catches up on sleep... i'm not sure how that will work though cos she's never gotten this overstimulated...

i'm waiting on the nasty comments from mum (she didn't get any cuddles at all today) - i'll tear shreds off her. DH actually said to me he doesn't want me going back there if my parents are going to disregard Emmy Rose's welfare like that - my DH is one of the most easy going people so for him to say that, they've really over stepped the mark. i'm so annoyed at them - who the hell stirs up a virually sleeping baby to the point of making them scream??? and then for mum to want cuddles rather than letting me settle her! thankfully i'd said to DH if mum tried to take my crying baby off me i'd be standing up to her, so he backed me up - kinda ran interference by keeping us close - my folks are kinda scared of him heheheh