argh! what a shocker of an afternoon - bubba slept for only about an hour and a half from 11am til half four - the rest of the time she has been either screaming blue murder or feeding - til i got her to sleep about 8. she'd kip before that, but wouldnt' actually sleep! poor little mite - i think she has a bit of a cold... it's taking it's toll on both of us i think...

having a bad enough day on my own - wonder if that's impacting her. have a headache that i really need to take something decent to kill but don't want to take anything too strong for her... had a tanty at DH before - he kept taking her off me to try and settle her - which is fantastic - but i need him to remember that he leaves next week for work again and i'm going to have to do things solo so sometimes (like when she's really worked up) he needs to leave me to it. Emerald needs to learn sometimes she just has to wait a little bit - mummy can only get things done so quick on her own!

on top of the headache, i had a nasty clot this morning - went into panic mode (it was the size of my fist!) rang the hospital and got told it's perfectly normal at this point after a c/s - great! would have been fantastic if they'd given me some warning! i left hospital with bleeding looking to stop - i expected more, but nothing like this - why didn't they warn me??? no wonder i'm so freaked out and tired and headachey tonight - that was a rather stressful start to the day!