I had the debrief chat with M. I'm glad that my sister and mum insisted that she stay with them yesterday arvo, while I went home. They brought her back at 6pm. Gave me time to cool down, I was so upset that i was gasping for air while crying when retelling the story to DH at home. Havent cried like that in forever!!! I had nightmares last night about it. Still feel incredibly guilty. But anyway I'm glad that they took her, they must have realised I would yell at her big time once home, I was fuming. But after I cooled down I realised its my fault, not hers. Although she knows she shouldnt be standing on the edge of the pram and keeps telling me it was an accident and she wont stand on the pram again. Really really made me feel like the worst mum, thats my worst mummy moment ever.

ALSO we went out for dinner last night. DH insisted and my eyes were all sore from crying lol. Anyway once there it was all good. But while waiting for a free table I had to feed E so the restaurant had a little waiting area to the side with a comfy leather lounge, so I sat there. It was a busy little spot but I was barely exposing myself, especially now I've learnt the knack of public feeding without it really looking like I'm feeding. And this man, I couldnt believe him, he kept looking and giving me a filthy look, so i gave him a death stare back. Once he left the restaurant host man came up to me and was all 'are you comfortable there, can i get you a drink, stay there as long as you need and I will take you through to your table when you are ready' He was wonderful and obviously saw the disgusting man shooting me the evils and was trying to let me know I was welcome to feed. So that was my first public feeding dirty look lol

Cass - That sounds terrible, hope the girls dont get it!!! Good on your DH for taking L out.