I'm petrified of death. The whole nothingness scares me so bad if I start thinking about it I have to stop or I will end up in a massive anxiety attack.
I worry about my girls as their dad is a drop kick and pray he would let me parents have custody so thy are raised in a stable and loving environment as I'm sure he would think I had died to inconvenience him.
And I worry that he won't let M still be a part of the girls lives.
I have life Insurance though and it's set up to go to M so my ex can't get his hands on anything and my will states that M will have the money in trust for the girls and will pay for half certain things when he is given the bill for. So my girls will be looked after by a trust fund that will be available for part schooling costs (their dad will still have to be some what financially responsible)
But i don't want to have ex the have access to the money when he feels like it and waste it like I know he would.
Yes, I think about it all the time. Well, not all the time, but whenever I have a little health niggle - a headache for a couple of days or some sort of random pain and also on occassion when I'm driving alone. I think for me personally it has a lot to do with my own mother dying from cancer at a relatively young age. I would hate for DS not to have his mother growing up and I would hate to miss out on him growing up. I try not to focus on it too much though.
This is gunna sound really morbid and depressing, but I think about it all the time. =P I thought I was having a midlife crisis a couple of months ago! I think these thoughts have spurred on my desire to start TTC. It scares me that life is really quite short...
After the crappy start to the BB year with a member losing her husband, then Uncle Amy and Lulu, then the babies born sleeping that didn't even get a chance at life, it really shook me up and I organized life insurance for DH and I so at least the surviver will be alright financially if anything happened to one of us.
I do worry about myself dying and leaving them, also if DH takes the kids out I sometimes end up in tears at the thought of something happening and them not coming home - they are my whole world.
I do worry about it because my mum died when I was 9. I do try and keep it in perspective - you never know what is ahead of you? But I tend to take lots of photos and videos of everyone and also try to focus on the gift that simply having a life to live is. I do also try to keep us all reasonably healthy - so exercise and good food as well as lots of laughs. Neither DH or I smoke or drink much either so we try to minimise our environmental risk as such.
Yep I think like this. I worry about it because I don't want to leave my DD, I feel like she really needs me. If I weren't here she would end up in fulltime childcare and not have my love every day.
Yes and no. I am scared of dying, as in the act of dying and what's going to happen. I worry about something happening to my husband and how I would cope without him. I also worry about something happening to Moo, just the thought of him not being here for whatever reason scares the living daylights out of me so I try not to think about it. I don't think I'm strong enough to survive him ITMS.
As for leaving my son behind, I have to say this is not something that worries me for some reason. My own dad died when I was 6 and it's had the opposite affect on me as to what PP's have said. It's hard to explain but I know he'd be ok.
Yes, I do. The thought of never seeing my kids again or the thought of them crying for me or being hurt or upset and not being there for them makes me cry every time I think about it.
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