Oh Scooby... huge hugs to you sweetie :hugs:
I know that feeling all to well.
When I walked out of the Dr's office after being told that Noah "was incompatible with life" I bumped straight into a woman who is known in my town for her drug habits... and there she was, with a huge pregnant bump, on her way outside for a cigarette.
People like this make my blood boil!!!
I am reassured by knowing that every problem that Noah had wasn't because of my lifestyle... I dread to think about how much worse off he would have been if I was smoking, drinking or whatever during my pregnancy with him.