Jo: :hugs: a million times over. I know it is difficult but try not to blame yourself. You are a wonderful mother.

I too had a situation where I came across a pregnant lady smoking. I was leaving hospital after giving birth to my stillborn son, and at the entrance to the delivery suite, was a lady puffing back on a smoke. I think it is important to remember that losing a child is such an emotionally charged time, that we focus on why me, trust me, when I saw that lady my DH had to phsyically restrain me from thumping her, but she isn't me, Harry wasn't coming back.

We do the best we can, I have never smoked but I know that smoking is a terrible, addictive habit, but like all the ladies have said, no one deserves to loose a child.

I think it is time for a big

Lv Spring