Hey loopy--It's such a struggle to find yourself after the loss of a child. I knew as soon as I had my m/c that I wouldn't be happy until I was pregnant again. I think in my case that TTC has helped keep my mind occupied and has given me a small reprieve from the craziness that I was feeling inside my own mind. I, too, find myself alone a lot with nothing much to do but think about what could've been. My saving grace are the women here at BB, and I mean that from my heart! Everyday they make me laugh, sometimes they make me cry, but I have found such comfort and support from everyone that I've met here. I think it helps when you surround yourself with people who just KNOW where you're coming from, and they know how to support you because they've survived the same trauma and gut wrenching loss that you have. And you get the opportunity to support other women, as well, which definitely helps take your mind off yourself and your own grief. When you're ready to begin TTC, I would love it if you joined the TTC after M/C thread. I promise you'll feel cared about and supported unconditionally! Hang in there loopy!