loopygirl - my heart goes out to you. It truly is an awful experience and I wish no-one had to go through the loss of a pregnancy or child. It's been 18months since my first m/c and I still cry every now and again, although I have learnt to live with it the pain is always there.

I found changing my routine helped a little, I stared shopping at a different supermarket, I got rid of all of the clothes that reminded me of when i was once pregnant. Sounds drastic and I in no way have 'shut out' the memories - I just felt like I needed a fresh start and those things helped. My Dh is a shift worker so I am often home alone for days at a time, at first it was really hard but I started doing things on those nights like booking in for a facial then I would come home and light some candles and have a nice bath (& pretend I'm somewhere far away & exotic). DH and I have been lucky we've had a few o/s trips too which has been nice. I spoilt myself and bought a few box sets of my fav old tv shows (like Cold Feet) and I watch them when I'm on my own.

DH and I are still really keen for a bub and are ttc at the moment. It's a tough road and I know when I fall pg again I will worry, I'll worry even when they are 21!

Men handle things differently, i got really upset with my DH at one stage because I felt like I was the only person who was missing our bub but we had a good talk (after I threw a giant tantrum) and I know it does affect him as deep - he just has different ways of dealing with it and showing his grief.

The girls in here are great too - you'll find lots of support.

Sending you a huge