Baby Alexander - born and died 28-04-08

[Celsie]

Oh no, that's just so heartbreaking. I'm so so sorry for you loss. May your heart heal in time.

xoxox

[sconeonamission]

oh, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family and may Alexander watch over you.

[Inanna]

Darling, I feel so so sad when I read your words.
It WILL get better and you WILL get thru this time. It is slow and nobody's journey duplicates another. How you are feeling is what incredible grief feels like. It is a lonely, cold place that hurts incredibly.

I can remember when I had found out my first baby had died. I was sent home to come back the next day for a D & C. I remember when I woke up the next day it seemed incongruous that the sun still rose, that life was going on around me as if nothing was wrong. When clearly it was all so terribly wrong. I too that first time found it hard to get out of bed. It took weeks before I would go down the street. I couldn't stand the questions, the cheery faces, the sad faces... I couldn't stand any of it.
What you are experiencing is part of the process - you need to be supported - come in here and get that loving support. You may find comfort / help from Sids kids or other organisations or a private counsellor...

One day soon you will smile more in the day than you will cry. It will slowly happen.

We are here to help you, to cry with you, to laugh with you - to be your friend.

[Naomi]

Danek, i am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby boy.
You are in my thoughts and prayers sweetie

[Lisa]

Oh sweetheart.
As Flowerchild said, one day you will smile more than you will cry... in the mean time, allow yourself to cry as much as you want to.
Thinking of you honey... you have friends and support here, and loads of shoulders to cry on

[danek]

I've discovered the power of the sleeping pill. After some actual sleep and some hopeful messages - dare I say that today I feel that one day (not now) I may be able to face the world again.

I don't think that I'll ever be able to return to my original self but I guess its going to be a long road before I find out who the new me actually is. Does that make sense?

Its good to know that I'm normal in my reaction. Its difficult when some expect me to pick up where I left off and just get on with it.

Thank you all for your messages.

Danek