Thanks for the support ladies. It's a hell of a tough spot to be in, but right now I am having a good moment. I can't vouch what I'll be like in 10 minutes time, but right now I'm doing just OK. Still very empty, but so far no tears....
I have purchased a memory charm that is a small gold heart with tiny footprints on it. They were also having a special, so I got LOVE engraved on the back. It's what our son says to us 'love mummy' 'love daddy'. So now it means even more to us than the traditional meaning. I will wear it on my necklace, right next to my heart.
I was listening to the radio the other day and they were advertising the latest lottery - $19M it was. Something along the lines of 'tell us your $19M dream'. I didn't hesitate - I would gladly give up every cent to have our baby back.
I can't help toying with the idea of ttc straight away - please tell me I'm not being insensitive? I just really need to feel happy again and right now this is the only way that I think I can do that.
There are no medical reasons why we can't - heck, even the OB (who is just fantastic and a bit of a joker) bet my hubby we would be back in hospital before the end of the year delivering a healthy bub
I got out the ultrasounds today - silly, silly thing to do! Especially when you get to the one that says 'no feotal heartbeat'. Christ, that just brought it all home and with avengeance.
I am so so sorry for your loss. Words never seem enough..
I too suffered a miscarriage of twins at 12 weeks. It was devastating and so heartbreaking, so I think I know what you are going through.
I can tell you that you wont forget, but it does get easier with time. Please give yourself time to grieve and don't be hard on yourself. You need time. There is no set rule on 'how long' it will take to feel better, but you will eventually.
Be kind to yourself and dont feel guilty for crying and being sad...
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