Big hugs again today Butterfly...

I understand about thinking where you "should" be in your pregnancy. It hurts and it is hideous... I also understand about not wanting to plant something and for it to die. There are other things you can do if you choose... You could buy a special candle holder/candle. It could be caterpillars... You can light it whenever you need as a reminder... You can buy a book that is significant - of quotations or poetry that you can read when you need to feel close... I am sure the other women will have some ideas...

I want you to have a nice warm bath... Put some lavender/rose geranium in and soak... Soak away some of that pain.

I know that feeling of wanting to go to sleep and wake up when the pain is not as bad. I truly truly understand that feeling. But we can't. For some reason this is part of your life journey. It is so hard and painful but we have to go through it the best way we can. But few of us can do it alone. You don't have to because I don't think there is a single person in our beautiful Belly Belly community that isn't praying for you, who isn't feeling some of your pain for you... Remember that when you feel really dark. I know it won't help much but it will help some... :hugs:

Can you have a massage - just to release some of what is being held in that body of yours. It will ease you physically but I believe it eases your spirit some too. It could be a good thing...

I am a long way away but my thoughts are close. You can email me if you need to my love...