i cant beleive i am here

[craftymummy9]

SO SORRY mummyof4

I am sending you a big you must be so devestated after seeing a heart beat the other week, we are all here to give you suport through this sad time.
I hope your pains will not last too much longer mine lasted about 48 hrs after my miscarriage but I had to keep taking pain killers for about a week until I was pain free, when you have had a few children your womb has a bit more work to do to get back to normal so hang in there its natures way of making sure you can try again one day.

Try to get some rest and put your thoughts on here there is always someone willing to listen and help in this emotional time you are going through if it wasn't for this forum I would not feel as strong as I do today only 4wks since my loss so keep in touch and don't be too hard on yourself

[Butterfly Child]

am so sorry for your loss

[~MummaBear~]

thank you so much for all your kind words, it really seems to make it that little bit easier to know that how i m feeling is normal, and other people have been through the same thing.
My physical pain has started to ease altho my milk come in yesterday so that is hurting quite a bit
I just have trouble now dealing with the fact that we have to move on, i have 3 other kids here that i have to get up and look after, i have to clean the house and i have to go shopping, but i feel guilty that i am even thinking of doing something other than sitting here looking at photos of my angel and crying, i still want to do taht but i need to be there for my 3 other children. just feel so torn between my grief and my life that i need to live

i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot

[blessedatlast]

I am so sorry for your loss mummyof4.. I know how hard it is when people don't acknowledge your baby.. It's because they don't know what to say, so sometimes think its better to say nothing..

I have been through losing my babies and it is still hard to know what to say because you know that nothing can take away the pain.. Just try and let yourself grieve the way you need to and know you are not alone in this horrid journey..

[Celsie]

i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot

Firstly, I am so sorry and saddened to hear that your precious little one has passed. I've never lost a baby, but I lost my brother Matthew, in a car accident 10 years ago. People would either avoid mentioning him which hurt so much, or they'd start to talk about him and then they'd stop and apologise for mentioning his name, which was worse! People who have never experienced loss don't know how to act, or what to say, so don't take it personally. They think that if they mention your angel, it will make you feel worse than you already do.

I know your heart must be aching so much right now, but I want you to know that the pain does ease. It won't always hurt this much. But, until that day comes, be kind to yourself and let yourself grieve. Perhaps plant a special tree in your backyard in memory of your little one? Let you children be a part too. I take my kids to my brother's headstone, where his ashes are. We say hello to Uncle Matt and give him a kiss (DS (who is only 2) kisses his fingers and puts it on Uncle Matt's photo). That way, he's still a part of our lives, and although deeply missed every day, he is dearly remembered and lives on in our hearts.

[Matthew's Mum]

I'm very sorry for your families loss i have 3 living children as well and it has been hard on them too,each of them dealt/dealing with the loss differently.My son was 3 when we had our loss and he seemed/seem to get comfort from drawing pictures and putting them in Matthew's memory box also he blows kisses to his burial pot,maybe your children could blow kisses to heaven instead of your belly.It is so hard for them ,I tried to keep up with their normal activities such as dancing ,gymnastics and when they saw /see me crying told them i was sad about losing Matthew,but happy i didn't lose them.

[cheekyfrog]

I'm so very sorry you have lost your baby, Mummyof4, I hope that you can grieve the way you need to and that you can get some much needed support irl as well as in here. Sending you and your family big, big hugs and love.
Kerry

[~MummaBear~]

We just found out for sure this morning that our little baby was a beautiful little girl
we have named her Kyarna. we were also told that she was 26cm long and weighed 135g! apparently that is very tall!!

we still need to wait a few more weeks for the rest of our results but it has made it nice to be able to give Kyarna a name and not call her bub or it anymore

[Queen]

i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot

Hello, you know who I am, you know where I am.
Angel Kyarna will always be in our hearts, and you can talk to me anytime.
Your princess lives in you.
People do not know what to say hun, they avoid talking as they "think" they are doing the "right" thing. You know you would do the same.
I wish I could take your pain and make it all okay.
I am so sorry for your loss and everything that goes with it ***hugs***
See you in the sun tomorrow

[helle]

i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot

Don't ever forget that I think about your Angel every day! And mine too, they're both bouncing around together in the clouds getting up to mischeif

There isn't really much else I can add, all the girls have given such good advice already and I hope it's helping.

Celsie, has really knocked the nail on the head. The pain does eventually start to ease, and you will start to feel normal again, and you'll come out the other side a stronger person with a different spin on life. You do have to let yourself be a sad mummy to get there, though.