thank you so much for all your kind words, it really seems to make it that little bit easier to know that how i m feeling is normal, and other people have been through the same thing.
My physical pain has started to ease altho my milk come in yesterday so that is hurting quite a bit
I just have trouble now dealing with the fact that we have to move on, i have 3 other kids here that i have to get up and look after, i have to clean the house and i have to go shopping, but i feel guilty that i am even thinking of doing something other than sitting here looking at photos of my angel and crying, i still want to do taht but i need to be there for my 3 other children. just feel so torn between my grief and my life that i need to live

i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot