i also thought the hardest thing i would deal with now would be everyone asking questions, but its not, people are avoiding it. no one talks about my angel, it is as if bubba never existed and that hurts alot
Firstly, I am so sorry and saddened to hear that your precious little one has passed. I've never lost a baby, but I lost my brother Matthew, in a car accident 10 years ago. People would either avoid mentioning him which hurt so much, or they'd start to talk about him and then they'd stop and apologise for mentioning his name, which was worse! People who have never experienced loss don't know how to act, or what to say, so don't take it personally. They think that if they mention your angel, it will make you feel worse than you already do.

I know your heart must be aching so much right now, but I want you to know that the pain does ease. It won't always hurt this much. But, until that day comes, be kind to yourself and let yourself grieve. Perhaps plant a special tree in your backyard in memory of your little one? Let you children be a part too. I take my kids to my brother's headstone, where his ashes are. We say hello to Uncle Matt and give him a kiss (DS (who is only 2) kisses his fingers and puts it on Uncle Matt's photo). That way, he's still a part of our lives, and although deeply missed every day, he is dearly remembered and lives on in our hearts.