hun, its a horrible hell that no one should ever have to endure - but ride the hell wave you must, you must let yourself go through all the emotions, if you feel that ou must scream then scream - if you feel that you must cry and collapse in aheap then do it.

about a month after my second one i did just this, after a few glasses of wine, at a bbq.....

then i got counselling, which helped so much.

but i thought about them daily. only once i fell pregnant with my now 2 month old did i truly start to heal.

take care of yourself, do what you can to relax