I just wanted to say a BIG thankyou to all the lovely ladies who've replied. I sisn't expect such a big response, and so quickly! Thank you all for your support I am still not sure what to do but i think in time God will show me the way. I have been reading through the other heartbreaking stories of loss on here and i realise just how blessed i am to have my gorgeous son. There are some ladies on here who have been through so much and my heart really goes out to them. I can only imagine the heartache of loosing a baby late in pregnancy or loosing twins. I guess in some way i was fortunate to have my angel taken early as i can imagine how hard it must be when they are farther along. Luckily i never saw the heartbeat or the bub on the ultrasound so i don't have that image to haunt me.
To all the other ladies on here, i feel for you and wish you happiness and blessings. Thank you all again for your kind words