firstly I just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words.I never expected a reply let alone so quick.It's good to know even though I seem to be getting no support from most of my family ,friends and all those medical idiots there are still supportive people out there, even if they don't know you from a bar of soap.
It comforts me to know that maybe im not alone.I never realised how common things like this are and I guess once you get past that magical 12 wk mark you think your in the clear,how wrong was I.
I think its not just the fact that you lose your baby along with all of your hopes and dreams, its the whole situation and everything you have to go through.
I know this is gonna sound dumb but i feel traumatised from the whole expierience.It came on so sudden one minute I was wrapping xmas presents the next I was bleeding and cramping and off to the hospital only to wait and be told I had to go home and miscarry/labour on my own.Then a couple of days later i suddenly started haemorraging bad so back to the hospital I was by ambulance.They literally held me down and tried to pull everything out with tong like things trying to stop the blood.That was the worst experience of my life laying there feeling helpless in absolute pain freaking out cause they couldnt stop the blood, which kept pouring out.All I could think about was my poor kids and what if a they cant stop the blood.Off to surgery I was , thank God they could stop the blood.So so sorry im rambling now I think i needed to get that off my chest feels so much better now that I've typed it out.Anyway thank you once again for your support I feel very comforted in knowing that im not alone.