hi thanx so much again for your support words cannot express how words from selfless caring strangers have made me feel.After arguing with my gp I have got a referal for a psychologist which I will be attending today.I have realised that maybe I do need to speak to someone about the whole situation in order to move on and grieve without affecting my poor kids.Im actually very nervous I guess im scared the psychologist will be just like every other dr and nurse.I'm not looking for answers or pity I just want the right to be upset ,to yell if i need, for someone to say yes it's nto something little.I dont know I guess I don't know what I need or want , I just know I have major butterflys in my stomach.
Thanx again so so so much for all of your support and heartwarming comments and well wishes it did and forever will mean so much to me.I'm so sorry for all of your losses and I hope you have all recieved just as much support as you have all given me ,thanx again wish me luck.