Thank you everyone for your thoughts and kind words. Some of you know how much it helps to know others care and know what we are going through.

Dory, thanks for your advice and support, as usual you worded it so perfectly.

Tomorrow is Poppy's funeral. I am terrified I wont be able to hold myself together at all, but I'm more terrified of what that will do to my DH and DS. I just need to get through. Good old 'Finding Nemo' will be my mantra "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming"...I will find the strength becasue I have to for my family.

Thanks so much again,

May your Chirstmas' be merry

Bec