No! No! No!! I'm so sorry, Ellie. I'm so upset for you and your DH. I wish I could say or do something that would make you feel better. All I can do is send you my love and all the hugs that the cyberworld can carry. I hope that your FS - who sounds like a very, very caring person - can shed some light for you on why this is happening for you.

Don't doubt that you are meant to be a Mum. You are. And you will be a great Mum. Oh Ellie. I'm so sorry.