I am so sorry for your loss And I am sorry that you had to fight so hard to get what you want.

You need to take time to grieve, you have lost all the hopes and dreams you had for this bub. You need to take one step, one day at a time. Please don't be too hard on yourself, you are only in the raw stages of grieving.

I know for me I have gained strength from the wonderful, beautiful people I have met here. It takes time to gain strength, so surround yourself with supportive and caring people. Take care, thinking of you :hugs: