hi ladies, thank you so much for your replies, it means a lot to me!

i woke up the morning, covered in blood, and i 'passed' what i can only describe as a blob.. we didnt get to have the ultrasound(the hospital had no record of my appointment - even after i handed them my piece of paper that the doctor wrote the appointment details on...) so i have booked one for tomorrow afternoon, and they will tell me if i need to have anything else removed..

im feeling such mixed emotions.. one minute im ok, then my heart just sinks when i think i could have been telling my friends and family some exciting news, but instead im telling a select few my sad news. its not fair, but i can only think it could have been worse... i could have lost our baby after 6 months of pregnancy or worse stillbirth... i now have a more emotional understanding of what miscarriage really means, and i sympathise with anyone else who has suffered one.. and i cant help but think why i was given a baby, then to have it taken away

thanks again for your replies, even a small well wish means so much, and its helping me get through this.

i just wish we had a chance to get used to the idea of being pregnant, but i guess maybe its better this way.

byebye our butterfly baby.......