wishing i didnt have to do this!

[MistyFying]

Rach I'm very sorry for your loss

[visitor1]

Rach im so sorry your butterfly has flown away....*hugs babe*...take care of yourself.

[V21]

Rach, so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs your way.

[Kitt3n]

oh rach, big hugs your way....

its just not fair is it ?

[DoubleK]

thanks ladies

i have found talking about it helps alot, so i am slowly telling a few friends and family.. i know there is no rush to tell everyone straight away.

[Celsie]

I'm so sorry for you loss Rach.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Sarah. xoxox

[Angel Babies 3]

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Big hugs,
Debbie

[Hollybolly]

Rach,

I have only just seen this thread, but wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss xxx

I hope each day from here becomes a little bit easier for you xxx

[*Belle*]

Rach

Im so sorry to hear this big hugs to you. Thinking of you.

Bel
xxx

[Shanti]

So sorry to hear Krystal :hugs: it's awful when you just find out you are pregnant and then you lose it.... it's like one high to the next..... i know how that feels I've been there myself..... its not easy no matter how pregnant you are.... big hugs (and im still waiting for that next BFP...)

[~shazz~]

Rach~ i'm so sorry for your loss

[Zee]

Rach im so sorry hun to hear of this (HUGS)

[DoubleK]

thanks ladies! i appreciate all your kind words..

I had to have an ultrasound yesterday to make sure i dont need to have anything removed.. as nice as the lady was.. hearing the words 'no, i cant see anything at all' just made me want to scream... one minute i feel fine, then it hits me.. then im fine... then it hits me..
ill get there eventually!

[snowie]

I only just caught up with this thread. I'm so sorry
All losses hurt - my latest one was 'only' a chem but still bloody hurts, and I'm up and down like you describe.

[DoubleK]

thanks snowie, i couldnt imagine what you musy be goign through!

i now understand that you dont fully comprehend the hurt that comes with a miscarriage until you experience one yourself... i didnt realise you feel so emotioanlly attached... i thought it was more 'your pregnant then your not..' its not really that simple though is it....

good luck in your TTC journey!

[Emmy-Lou]

Sorry this is a bit late but i am sorry for your loss.. I just wanted to share this with you as i felt it summed up exactly how you feel when you lose a lil angel that is so loved from the start and without meeting them..
Take Care
xoxox

Written by Jennifer Wasik
In memory of Zachery Wasik.

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

[SHELL 70]

Rach, I am so sorry to hear your very sad news. Life is so cruel sometimes especially when we have no answers. May your friends & family help you at this difficult time. Take care.

What a beautiful poem from Emmy-Lou.

Carly rose-stillborn 38wks June 14th 1999
Angel Bubba m/c 7wks 2002

[bettyboop]

sending you a big hug