Zachary's mum - I am so sorry for your devastating loss, no words will ever help your pain but just know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Just go with how you are feeling, no emotion is right or wrong, and as one of the other ladies has said keep your strength up by eating well and look after yourself as much as you feel you can. I know your feelings all too well, in February of 2007 my daughter Phoebe was stillborn and I honestly didn't know where to turn, I was so thankful for my partner and my family but I just felt nobody really understood,...until I found this website, other than my partner and family this and the women here are what have kept me going, its the first place I would come to speak of how I was feeling and the first place I came when I felt I wanted to try again, there are women here who will understand, so I truly hope that they can be such a support to you.