Thank you to everyone who has been in touch. I appreciate all your kind words and support.
I am just having a bad day today and feel like writing is the only thing I can turn to. I started back at work this week (just for 2 days a week for a while to get back into the swing of things).It was really hard as I am in the financial industry and had to work with the public all day. The hardest thing for me was that it seemed like wherever I went there were crying babies and I couldn't handle it. I was an emotional wreck all day (which was embarrassing for me at work).
WILL THIS PAIN EVER GO AWAY? AM i EVER GOING TO FEEL NORMAL AGAIN? WILL THERE EVER BE A DAY WHEN I DON'T CRY?
This pain feels like more than I can bear. All I want is my little boy in my arms!
to you hun. All you can do is take it all day by day. I wish i could take away your pain right now. Just know we are all here wheneer you need to talk,vent,scream whatever it is you need.
Thank you so much. It helps to know there are kind people like you in this world. Thanks for your message on my profile page. I don't know how to reply to that message (I am a bit technically challenged :-)
i am so so deeply sorry for your loss.I have no answers as to why this happened its so unfair. BB has great support. i wish i could take some of that pain away. I am sorry to you and your family. I am sorry you lost a beautiful son! I cant even begin to imagine what your going through and now waiting on results oh sweety I am sorry i can only imagine if 4 weeks ago i lost my son. You are so brave to come and share with us thank you!
I am okay. Just had surgery to have my gall bladder removed so I have been feeling very sorry for myself. I have good days and bad days and the silliest things can still get me crying!
How are you?
Thanks for thinking of me - I appreciate it.
I hope that the surgery means that you are feeling better physically.
I noticed you mentioned Zachary would have been 3 months old recently. I am glad you have brought it to our attention as it is important to keep intouch with people when you are feeling low. 3 months is a huge milestone isn't it. I bet it still really hurts that he is not here, just as you said. I imagine that those friends of yours who have recently had babies would more than understand how you are feeling. I am sure they do not begrudge you feeling guilty that you are not able to share their joy as they would most likely feel exactly the same way if they were in your situation. I know that I would (and do) understand. I think that you have a few free passes up your sleeve to just feel exactly as you need to at the moment.
How am I? Not bad I guess. Life presents its ups and downs on many different levels. I wont bore you with the details here and now, but suffice to say, I am keeping my chin up.
I wish you and your husband the very best if and when you decide to try to get pregnant again. Zachary can take on a new role of being a guardian angel, both to you and your husband and to any potential siblings - what a lovely thought!
The surgery went well and I on the mend - so it is a good thing.
Yes - Zachary would have been 3 months old last Friday. It is extremely hard that he is not here and my heart aches every day for him.
You would not bore me. I feel like I need to be supportive to you as you have been to me. So any time you want to let it all out - I am here.
On another note. I am having problems with my account. Every time I try and access my details or someone else's profile it won't give me access? Have you ever encountered this problem? I don't know why it is doing it?
We are looking at trying for another baby now that the surgery is over. I am so scared it is going to take a long time. we will never replace Zachary but we have so much love to give. Zachary as a guardian angel is a beautiful thought. Thank you.
Thanks again for your messages - it keeps me going
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to you hun. All you can do is take it all day by day. I wish i could take away your pain right now. Just know we are all here wheneer you need to talk,vent,scream whatever it is you need.
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