Thanks for your replies . I'm glad I'm not the only 'weird' one out there who hasn't left their LO yet. That in itself helps a lot .
Big to you Heaven - I would be freaking out too!

I don't understand everyone's insistence that I should be leaving DS with other people - like I'm strange to want to look after my own baby! DH and I do get couple-only time every evening, as DS is in bed by 7.30pm, so we get a few hours to ourselves - not quite the same as going out, so that will be nice one day - just not yet.
I think I'll just have to tell my mum (and others) that I'm not ready yet - but I will add that she'll be the first person I call when I finally am ready (thanks for that suggestion ).

Thanks again for your replies - I don't feel quite so silly for making a big(ish) deal out it.