Im sorry and know you need time but NO WAY. Not after watching a program on tv before I had DS and it was on baby sitters hurting and shaking the babies they were caring for. They showed on ladies little girl being shaked and dropped on the floor at the age of 6 months and after seeing that there is no way I would leave my kids in the hands of a stranger.

Im sorry its got to be hard for you but I would really think about it as you only have to leave them with one bad baby sitter.