I only just saw this now

Unfortunately I can't offer much advice, but wanted to let you know that you're not alone in the thoughts you are having about how you coped with your first birth and how you will cope with this one .

I had a tens machine with DS which I found really helpful. Even though they say they're not great for inductions, I personally found that being able to do something (push on the button) and experience a sensation other than that of the contraction which I could focus upon, made a big difference. I'm not sure if I got the endorphin benefits that they are designed to give, but it definately helped in other ways.

The other thing that might be worth exploring is induction acupuncture from 37 weeks or so? Your midwife should be able to tell you if it's ok to start it a bit earlier than normal, but in your case they might bend their normal rules to help you avoid medical induction.