Did you use any drugs in your birth?
No. But only once was that through 'choice' - the other two times i certainly would have had drugs if I had been able to.

Did you have complications during your birth?
Slight complication with DD (I had a 'small' PPH because the cord and placenta seperated before it had been delivered, and DD needed to be resusitated as she had choked on her meconium), but that is because she go distressed, not due to any physical aspect of myself.

Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation?
I have felt slight dissapointment and disempowerment with DD and DS2, because I wanted drugs (specifically an epidural) and was unable to receive any. I have this habit of being 8cm's dialated when I get to hospital. With DS1, I had time to have any drugs I wanted, and the choice was available to me, and I choose not to. I felt fabulous about that birth. I think For ME, the disappointment and disempowerment comes into it more because of the LACK of choice, not because I didn't have a good birthing experience - IYKWIM. When I have had oppertunity to have the choice I chose not to have drugs, but I felt comfortable with that decision because it was a choice - the other two times there was no choice, I was forced into the situation by nessecity, and it was scarier, I was less in control.


This time I am trying to resolve myself to the fact I likely won't have a choice in the matter before I go in, so I am hopefully not so dissapointed.