Baby no1

Did you use any drugs in your birth? Pethidine 12hrs before birth
Did you have complications during your birth? Yes posterior birth, PPH over 1000mls, OT for manual removal of placenta.
Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation? Not at all. Very empowering

Baby no2
Did you use any drugs in your birth? Peth 2hrs before birth
Did you have complications during your birth? No but early 36wks
Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation? No but disappointed at Dr for insisting I had synto when I was in transition

Baby no3
Did you use any drugs in your birth? The works (Peth, gas and epidural
Did you have complications during your birth? Shoulder dystocia and epidural didn't work effectively (but it wasn't a labour complication)
Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation? Lots of self disappointment at needing an epidural and completely loosing the plot. Very poor memory of labour before the epidural but I do remember been completely out of control and swearing alot. The only two words come out of my mouth were no and F*#k. So lots of embarrassment after having 2 empowering births followed by one I didn't handle at all.