I don't think what you said was stupid at all! I remember when I was preg with #1 my family said similar things to me about how I'd be screaming for an epidural before long. I also did a lot of research and found understanding what hurts and why in labour helped me to visualise the process and I can honestly say that labour was not that horrible! exhausting yes but not as painful as being cut open! It is a productive pain, a cramping, working muscle pain.

Funny thing is after hearing me natter on about all my pregnancy, birth and baby stuff and being teased constantly about my choices to birth without an epidural, breastfeed until 2, use cloth and baby wear when my SIL had her third she decided to give it a go. She had her third without an epidural, and went on to breastfeed 1yr and still going! She noticed a big difference in recovery time over having and epi and a big difference in breastfeeding success. she even gave cloth nappies and baby wearing a go! So keep up your research and stick to your plans you never know how your choices and research will help someone else!