BAL, you are an inspiration. I too, am amazed at what you've done to keep feeding your gorgeous boy and can't imagine the frustration that must come with breast refusal. Guessing it's a fraction like a baby who won't sleep.... sometimes I just want to say "but baby, if only you understood. Sleep is AWESOME!". Jett, young man, breast milk is liquid gold. You have it on tap. Go crazy kiddo!

My very good friend is going through similar at the moment. Not a premmie, but her DD is sick (has CF) and really needs good weight gain and her immune system protected by the goodies in BM... and 9/10 feeds just screams blue murder after a few sucks. My friend is beside herself and (I hope you don't mind), but I was telling her about you and Jett, how determined and courageous you have been and how well he's doing. She was encouraged to know that there are others out there in the same boat and that it's not just her, since she puts a lot of blame on herself and feels she must be doing something 'wrong'. So you're not just helping Jett with all this hard work, in sharing it, you're helping others.

Huuuugest hugs Hun. You're amazing.