Well that tops it, I know he didn't mean it to be in the way I'm taking it, but i can't help it.

We've been having so much trouble feeding, so we've been expressing and bottle feeding, and still trying every feed on the boob, in hopes she'll get it.
I'm trying at this feed with DD and as usual she's crying and getting upset, and DH says, "this is being so cruel to her!!"
And that's when it hit me, that's how it seems to her, mummies being cruel, she can't get her milk from my booby properly, no matter how hard she tries, why do I keep doing it when I can give her a bottle of my milk expressed instead?

But that just hurts... Reality is a *****... I want to BF my baby so badly and I can't... She cant.. We both can't... and that hurts SO badly because I don't know why when she could so well before for awhile but now can't and everyone is stumped!?

I want the closeness still and the feeling like I can actually do the most important thing right by my baby and feed her naturally from the booby like shes still ASKING for every feed when she roots around for my nipple :'(

It just hurts....

Rant over...